Day 8

Ok back to the routine of getting these posted around midnight,


This one is subtitled: The Church can be my Valentine!

Still not 100% today so I never did get around to trying out the Yoga, one of my strange flaws is I internalize stress so much I get physically ill, one of the reasons I am in the situation I am currently in lol but we wont get into that, this isn't the forum for that conversation.  I WILL keep up my promise to myself and to my ever growing readers to give it a genuine try, I am not attempting to put this off for any reason other than it's just not possible feeling like this to bend over and stretch lol.

With today technically being Valentine's Day, I cant help but think of my previous disappointments over the last 14 years, I do my best not to let them get to me, but I do let them serve as a reminder as for why I am doing this, why I am putting out this much effort to make a change in myself, so that one day I might attract a mate and future wife (God willing) that will give as much to me as I give to her, one that can realize that when two are married they really do become one, and that it is imperative to remember that what benefits the whole benefits the individual and what causes harm to one causes harm to both.  I have never asked for much in the past honestly, I just believe that I deserve some one who can be faithful and not be cruel to my children.

Sense tomorrow is Sunday, I will be doing my best effort to attending Church at The River Center tomorrow.  It will be interesting to hear what the sermon will be, being it is Valentine's Day, and the sermons do tend to have a theme for particular days such as Mother's Day etc.  Sense I have taken myself off the market then Church will be my Valentine for this year lol, don't quite know how that will work out but it's the safest Valentine I can select with out breaking my own promise to myself.

Speaking of my ever growing readers I made a Fan Club on Facebook for this blog where readers can go on discuss what ever, share success stories or what have you and see some pictures I have uploaded of some of the things I am doing to help me along my quest.  The fan page can be found here.

TTYL

-365daysnowomen