Day 11

LOL yes this is another late blog, but I think I am doing rather well considering that originally I wasn't even sure I could find some thing to talk about every day.

This one is subtitled: the thought to be dead have returned?

Still waiting for the first books to arrive, the last thing that was listed in the tracking page was that it arrived... some where, the location doesn't state where I imagine its at some sorting facility.  I wouldn't think it had made it's way all the way to Sweet Home yet, perhaps its in Portland at this point or Salem, not sure which facility it will go to first.

Tried the YOGA THIS MORNING!  lol I say tried loosely cause I soon figured out that you need some kind of bricks for these stretches? so I have to make my way to Walmart at some point and see how much they are and if I can squeeze them into my budget for this month.  I don't really want to delay this a whole month to try, so if I cant get them till then I will have to find some kind of substitute around the house and make a second attempt.

I did discover when attempting the Yoga video that I am in not in any way close to where I used to be lol I think there is a good 6 inches between my ankles and my butt when I attempt to sit back on them (was part of the warm up).  I had in no way any delusions about my size and how out of shape I am but it was still a surprise. 

I haven't really had much thought as to how to improve myself when it comes to relationships, hoping some reading materials will inspire me some way, sorry if it seems like this blog is stuck in a holding pattern, the only thing I have been able to do on the matter is think more on how I have made the wrong choices in the past.


I was told, however, that some one thinks what I am doing is romantic?!? now I have been worried as of late that the hopeless romantic in me has been long sense dead, but this person who shall remain anonymous, said "You are spending a year, making yourself a better mate for some one that you haven't even met yet because you want to make it last?  how much more proof do you need that the hopeless romantic still exists in you??" 

I did put some thought into this as well as into what it is for me to consider myself a hopeless romantic.  To me being a hopeless romantic would be to be so optimistic about love that there is never any doubt in my mind that it can conquer any obstacle; but maybe that is too narrow of a view on the matter.  maybe it is possible to be a hopeless romantic who is tempered with some, SOME pessimism to protect one's self enough to know when a relationship is unhealthy.  Maybe, just maybe having doubts can be a way to protect yourself, as long as the doubts are founded in reason, not out of simple fear.  However one must also keep in mind that you cannot judge every situation based simply on past experience, it would not be fare to doom a relationship, and judge some one based on the actions of my past relationships alone, each person and new relationship needs to be able to stand on their or it's how merits!

Just some food for thought I guess, will have to consider the matter more, so I can find away to make the point clearer to my readers.

Till then TTFN!

-365daysnowomen