Day 4

Before you ask where is Day 3? you were doing so well, I posted Day 3 as a vlog on YouTube, if you missed it follow this link here.

Subtitle: Romantic Comedies, Love Songs, and Fantasy Novels; Oh my!

Nothing to inflate one's standards of love than a Romantic Comedy or a Love Song. I'd have to say, especially after watching Couple's Retreat last night, that the idealization that these movies portray gets worse with every year. The large guy with the heart on his sleeve starts out as a divorced man still in love with his ex wife and with out any attempt at getting her back winds up with her all over again in the end of the movie. What is up with that? when has that EVER worked in reality? Besides just that happening when has there ever been a magical place couples can go to that has a 100% success rate of making all of their marriages work out in the end? I have seen movies that can portray a man who is a complete ass and because of a cheesy gesture gets the girl in the end! I honestly don't know why I watch them, I always get disappointed by the end of those movies lol.

Besides Romantic Comedies and Love Songs, the worst thing out there that has affected my view on romance and love the most are the Fantasy Novels I read. You may or may not watch the Saturday Evening show Legend of the Seeker on ABC? well before it was a TV series it was a Novel series, quite a long one I might add, but a series none the less. The love portrayed between Richard and Kahlan in the TV show pales in comparison to the love they have in the novel. When you read the series you can look into their souls and truly feel what they feel as the characters develop, I have come to realize, the hard way, that that kind of love and devotion only exists in those novels, and to expect some one to fall that deeply for me is really asking a lot.

Why do I bring any of this up? how is this helpful? well this is a realization stage in my quest, where I find things that are unhealthy to my progress to finding a good relationship, whether its my taste in dark broody goth chicks, or its my idea of what love should be like. I need to find some thing realistic and some one who would make a better fit for my personality. I need to admit to myself that even if I get deeply dark and moody I have moments of happiness too, and that I should find some one to share in the moments of bliss more than I should find some one who can understand my level of depression.

bah now I am starting to ramble in this post, so I had better cut myself off now and find a way to center myself for today.

Laters!

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